“Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to get through this thing call life.”
“Dearly beloved, we are gathered here today to get through this thing call life.” Words most all of us have heard from the artist known as Prince. That being said, I have seen the darkness. I have felt the darkness. I know that darkness and what it personally feels like. That hopeless feeling. It is the suffocating stigma that is suffocating the life out of us. Keep Hope.
Keep HOPE
Please keep HOPE. Without Hope, well, you are hopeless. I could have ended my life plenty of times. I have thought about it. I have even felt like I wanted to die. I wanted it to all end. I wanted the pain to stop. That is really all. I just wanted the pain to end and live my life free of pain, however, that is not possible. The fact is if I had ended it all I would have missed out on so much, so many good things, good times, laughter and joy, not just for me selfishly, but the life and joy and hope I bring to others. For me I wanted to wait around to see what happened next. It is a momentary feeling. Life is a roller coaster, it goes up and down, twists and turns, then more ups and downs twist and turns. Lots of bumps on the ride. Maybe those are speed bumps meaning for us to slow down. Pain and misery is part of life. Enjoy and take in the moment, not the past, not what is yet to come, but the here and now. As humans we are going to suffer. It comes and it goes just like the day and the night. It is a momentary affliction. It will pass. I have been there in the darkest dark darkest of night moments when that suffocating stigma comes in like a thief in the middle of the night, without warning it attacks.
Celebrate Life!
We want to live, not die. We want it to be pain free but that is not an option or possibility. Like I said, we are going to suffer in life. Suffering produces strength. Let’s LIFE SUPPORT each other. Life is the celebration. Healthy people admit their problems. Let’s talk, be honest and admit. It is not a shame to have feelings. It is a wonderful life. This beautiful mess. Darkness comes before the light.
Closing Thoughts
Bottom line, everyone has a reason to live. Personally, I have so many things I want to do, but the pain is still so real. Some people act like it is no big deal. It feels like no one understands and no one cares. Maybe I’m dreaming. Maybe it’ll come true. However, if I’m dead it’s over. No more dreaming. No more of the possibility of what might be. Don’t dream it’s over. It’s not. I know, I get it. I have been fighting this for 52 years. I am weary and tired. Still I am here. Dead is dead is dead is dead and there ain’t no coming back from that. That being said and known, I’m choosing to stick around. I hope you do too.
